I'm having some late night thoughts right now. Not sure how I should feel, but things are going just too fast I guess? And I'm the one still being left behind or what you call standing till when everyone is going forward. I know nobody is gonna read this blog, because nobody know this blog. I guess it's pretty a good thing that I can actually write almost anything about how I feel right here and not being afraid that I will be judge for what I've wrote. I'm really socially awkward and I think I am really bad at socializing. It's something I really hate to do. I'm always so so so awkward with people I know but not close with. And I guess this made me the so call loser compared to others. The things is I can be really open and get along easily if people approached me, but they usually don't. I haven't been approached by anyone for almost a year, maybe because I'm attached? I always feel this way. Oh well, problems by problems because I don't know what I really wants. Sometimes I wish I'm single because I guess that is still the best status one could ever have. Or maybe it's just me that I couldn't feel what I always feel - the happiness, excitement that girl always yearn for when they are in relationship. I just can't feel that anymore, it just feel so different. How I wish time could rewind back to old days. Although things ain't good but still, I would say I am not regret and if there is a chance I will want it over again even though the same ending would happen.
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