"Having is the start of losing"

It has been 3 days? Or maybe 2. I was ranting to Yong Lin earlier today about how I felt about my feelings and stuff. Then I started rewatch-ing In Time With You, maybe I will be able to learn something again. I haven't figure out how I should reply him after all the scoldings he sent me. What should I even say? Or should I just leave it. 

I have been staying at home the past 2 days doing things that is pretty unproductive. I really can't wait to go out. But I'm thinking a lot. And I don't know how I should express myself. It's something not as easy as writing it out anymore. I'm telling everyone I'm okay, I'm fine, but am I really okay and fine? I have no idea myself too. I guess I had to wear that smile on till I figure it out. 

Anyway, I was just wondering if anyone is reading all this? Apparently I don't think so because I didn't publicize my blog. However, I do check my statistics and surprisingly there is viewers that is viewing all this. If you are reading this, I'm really thankful. This is a space of mine that I express my feelings and thoughts, no intention of being famous nor popular. If you wanna leave any comments, go ahead. It would probably meant a lot to me.