Messy

I'm so messy inside of me. 

I know why I'm messy but how am I supposed to fix it? 

Why do I get my feelings attached so fast? I cannot. I need to step back, step back. Those little memories are already killing me, I don't wanna hurt my bestest friend, I don't ever wanna hurt myself again. 

Tell me how I should stop this. Tell me how please.